With neither god nor demon to keep me here
It makes it a little harder to sleep
Although it can't be said I'll "wait in fear"
I'll stay here (mostly alone) aware that I never could
Ever hold you the way that he would (if not for me)
Being held, held by you
I should have seen this coming, but the falsehood felt so true
The best of times have given way to worst
It seems only right to me, those highs beget this low
With only hope that I, am broken for the better
Uncomfortably numb shall I, abandon, destroy, repeat (and then rebuild)
Until I'm a little more sturdy
God, please g...